Letter to my Kindergartner

So I know this has nothing to do with Pinterest but I'm gonna share anyway. Addilyn starts Kindergarten tomorrow and this Mommy isn't quite ready (I've still got 10 hours and a bottle and a half of wine left to get there). But as I sat next to her bed as she slept tonight, I wanted to put all my thoughts and feelings into words so that she can eventually look back at and so maybe it would make my heart feel a little lighter...

My sweet, sweet Addilyn,
My heart is breaking, it’s pounding, it’s so full of pride and joy, its swelling, it’s going through so many pulls and tugs. After an hour of trying to get you to go to sleep you are finally peacefully sleeping and tomorrow when you wake up you are going to be a Kindergartner. Where has the time gone? It has been a very fast 5 years and I can only hope but am afraid that time is just gonna go faster and faster and not slow down. I have tried so hard to capture and treasure each moment, but I’m having a hard time holding on. It’s been a fast and eventful ride and I’ve loved every minute of it. You are such a bright, happy, smart and witty little girl. Once you finally went to sleep tonight I’m not afraid to admit I sat on the floor by your bed and had myself a good (ok big) cry. We have spent nearly every day and every hour together since you were born. I have loved being a stay at home mommy to you (and Reid) and I can only hope that I have taught you to be a good mannered and happy little girl. When I drop you off at your kindergarten classroom tomorrow I will be leaving a piece of my heart there. You Addilyn, are my pride and joy, my masterpiece and my everything. I am so gonna miss not having you at home every day, all day. When Reid is taking his afternoon nap, there isn’t gonna be any Addi/Mommy time on the couch watching Good Luck Charlie or here lately the Olympics. No help folding the clothes, picking up toys or even following me to the bathroom J . Instead you are going to be working on learning numbers (that I hope you already know), learning to be independent in the lunch room, making new friends and capturing the hearts and smiles of many people. I want you to love school. I think you are going to do great and I couldn’t be more proud of you. I love you so very much and I’m afraid before I know it I’ll be writing a letter to you right before you graduate high school. You are my sunshine and you make my heart smile!

I love you,

Mommy

8-7-12

Knock their socks off tomorrow baby girl!